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Everything is getting harder than expected. I'm at a loss. I don't know what to do. It's affecting me. I can't study. Nowhere to vent it out properly cause the person is not here.
It's suffocating. I don't know how others did it. I've never really believed in one. I knew it was going to be hard. I didn't expect it to be so devastating. Sure, I can tell my friends, I can share. But, it can only take away so much of the loneliness. Not the pain.
Everything else remained status quo if you're wondering. I do not dare to do anything stupid when I'm feeling upside down. I'm afraid I might make the wrong decision. I asked my mom about it. She is an old-fashioned woman. Not much help given. Same old same old.
My girlfriends are so busy, I don't dare to approach them. This is really torturous. I can fill my days with activities but still feel sucky at the end of it. It's this bad.
No one understands it better than me. Already so sucky, I still have to face arguments. This is seriously taxing both mentally and emotionally. So tired.
不知道为什么，用华语似乎比较能带出那个感觉。心中的伤痛有谁懂。即使倾诉了，他们也只是安慰你几句。老天啊！这是你给我的测验吗？我不想吃苦，虽然知道只要熬过这回感情一定会更坚定。但是，对方也要有相同回应才行啊！每天吵架，斗嘴，别扭，让所有的美好回忆都被抛在脑后。我现在看到的只有伤心、寂寞、心痛、希望变成奢望。。。快要不行了。谁来救救我？
It's suffocating. I don't know how others did it. I've never really believed in one. I knew it was going to be hard. I didn't expect it to be so devastating. Sure, I can tell my friends, I can share. But, it can only take away so much of the loneliness. Not the pain.
Everything else remained status quo if you're wondering. I do not dare to do anything stupid when I'm feeling upside down. I'm afraid I might make the wrong decision. I asked my mom about it. She is an old-fashioned woman. Not much help given. Same old same old.
My girlfriends are so busy, I don't dare to approach them. This is really torturous. I can fill my days with activities but still feel sucky at the end of it. It's this bad.
No one understands it better than me. Already so sucky, I still have to face arguments. This is seriously taxing both mentally and emotionally. So tired.
不知道为什么，用华语似乎比较能带出那个感觉。心中的伤痛有谁懂。即使倾诉了，他们也只是安慰你几句。老天啊！这是你给我的测验吗？我不想吃苦，虽然知道只要熬过这回感情一定会更坚定。但是，对方也要有相同回应才行啊！每天吵架，斗嘴，别扭，让所有的美好回忆都被抛在脑后。我现在看到的只有伤心、寂寞、心痛、希望变成奢望。。。快要不行了。谁来救救我？
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