Without you

From 2 Jan 2012 onwards,
I have to learn to be independent again.
I have to be dependent only on myself.
I have to get used to traveling alone.
I have to learn how to do things without you.
Everything all over again.
I have gotten so used to your presence.
I don't know how long I'll take to adapt to the environment without you.
Without your nonsense,
Without your lame jokes,
Without your laughters,
Without your hugs,
Without your comfort,
Without your pair of warm hands,
Without your kisses,
Without your HFBMNN,
Without your companion,
Without your encouragement,
Without your presence...
After more than 2 years with you, I will feel empty without you for 1 year.
All that I've gotten used to have to change.
I hope we can cherish this 1 month plus left together.
Please don't quarrel with me.
Please get used to my crying.
Please don't take it to heart when I say things that hurt you about leaving.
Please chauffeur me around like you promised to be my Chauffeur Yang back in 2009.
Please lend me your shoulders when I need.
Please don't cry in front of me because it will make me cry.
Please hug and kiss me even when I reject, I actually want it.


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I'm actually tearing at Bishan MRT. People must think that I'm crazy.